So depressed and cant cope i dunno what to do?

I think you need to see your doctor about some counselling to help you with the grief you are suffering and also your hormones will not have had time to recover and get back to normal if this has been recent. It seems that your boyfriend does not really love you or else he would have been more supportive to you.You have done some silly things as you acknowledge but it is understandable in your situation,it does not seem like you have much of a chance in this relationship if this man does not share your feelings.Good luck.